Nov 12, 2002
Anna's Rooftop: A Rafe & Masie Story
Madam Murder Crime Fiction by Doris Lane
(Fiction)
Then one day, for some reason, she was restless, and the three green walls seemed to close in on her. In a decisive move, she turned her chair to face north and the Van Gogh apartment building with its many windows. For the first time, she considered how Anna's rooftop must appear to her neighbors; especially at night in lantern light, it was a tiny stage and every event on it an act in a small play. What dramas of the City had the Van Gogh witnessed on Anna's rooftop?
A warm day in June, 1972, drinking mimosas and
eating Eggs Florentine on Tar Beach, Anna said she wanted to go
to Poland.
"Nah, Poland," said Singe Le Fleur derisively,
"I want to go to Bulgaria."
"I want to go to Albania," Alan growled. Alan always
growled when he spoke.
Such a great name, Singe Le Fleur, thought Masie to the side,
as she wondered where she wanted to go this summer. Singe was a
brilliant and jolly person who critiqued science fiction books.
She would die fairly young and very soon. Singe had a foreign
accent that, despite her last name, never sounded French, but of
some mysterious Eastern European hodgepodge language.
"I want to go to the South of France," Masie said
and saw she had let them down. Anna and all her friends were wild
for Eastern Europe. Anna, although she was a successful painter,
had gotten a PhD in political movements among the Serbo-Croatian
peasantry. When Masie thought of Europe, she thought of sidewalk
cafes, of bookstands along the Seine, of Zelda Fitzgerald and
Sarah Murphy and Josephine Baker.
The soft, clean Sunday air was a rare treat over Jane Street,
where Anna's studio sat, a very small tarpaper shack, really, on
a large expanse of Village rooftop. Anna had pots of flowers
everywhere and climbing honeysuckle lost among very old vines of
ivy. The building was only one story high and the adjacent
buildings much taller. From three sides of Anna's rooftop rose
sheer old brick walls. None of the walls had windows, or if they
had, the ivy had latched on and spread over them.
Across the street was a large 1920s apartment building with hundreds of
windows overlooking Anna's rooftop. But she had all chairs angled
away from the front, so that it was like sitting in a green
bower. The sun was overhead for only a brief period. The rest of
the day, a watery green seemed to tint the air and reflect onto
every surface.
Anna watched Masie stretching in the sun for a moment. Singe
caught on and started watching Masie, too. Alan always watched
everyone. Masie was accustomed to being watched by these
intellectuals. She knew it was because she was young and golden
and knew no extraneous languages.
Anna asked, "What about Sardinia? Would you go to
Sardinia?"
"Yes," said Masie, "I would go back
there."
Singe said, "Oh, were you in Sardinia?"
Singe was a perfectly nice person with a kind heart, but Masie
heard in her throaty voice a kind of surprise that Masie might
have ever traveled anywhere.
"Okay, Coney Island, then," Masie said. "Today,
we could go today."
Alan said, "Masie, be nice."
Ignoring her and him, Anna said, "Yes, Singe, we were
there together."
Masie added, to be nice, "We had a little whitewashed
house, with a grape arbor, and pigs in the yard."
Anna said, "There were lilies growing out of the sand on
the beach."
"Our landlady was named Fructosa," Masie told Singe.
"I think you should change your name to Fructosa Le
Fleur."
Singe laughed heartily and said, "Coney Island, it
is."
By mid-July, poor Singe was dead and Anna bereft. They had
been friends since Columbia in the 1950s, when they were
Communists together, with the cell names of Muffy and Puffy. To
console her, Alan took Anna to France to visit Singe's grave.
Masie found herself alone in New York for the month of August,
truly alone; every single person she knew was gone somewhere. She
tried to think of where she wanted to go, but started liking the
unaccustomed quiet and space of Manhattan in summer. She beat the
heat and humidity by visiting Anna's rooftop in the early morning
and staying until night. After a few days she moved over some
clothes from her dorm room, bought some food, and considered
herself on vacation.
Anna's library was in five languages, ranging from French to
Serb, and very intimidating to Masie. She took a week's vacation
money and spent it at the 8th Street Book Store on piles of Edith
Wharton, all six of Jane Austen, and a few of Jack Kerouac. Her
arms laden with the heavy bags, a man held the door open for her.
He was older and slim, delicate looking, with a still handsome
face. He wore a lightweight suit, with a white shirt and tie,
which you didn't see much on summer weekends in New York.
"Ethan Frome is the only good book Wharton ever
wrote and Kerouac was a no-talent poseur. Ah, but Jane."
Masie thought it awfully forward of this person to criticize
her reading tastes, but she had grown used to something about
this big city; it was a collection of small towns. It was not
unusual for perfect strangers to act as if they'd known you all
your life. She nodded and went on her way. She was seeing the
summer stretching before her, reading in a comfy chaise lounge,
taking long solitary walks along the Hudson River on Sunday
evenings.
She hurried home to Anna's rooftop.
It was perfect, just as Masie thought it would be. She was
deep into Jane Austen and felt as if she were living between the
pages, that her ivy-covered nest was a leafy bower in the New
Forest. For exercise, she took to walking 45 minutes at a time
along the perimeter of the roof. She had no desire to actually go
anywhere. For the first two weeks she'd been out only to buy
newspapers, some food and wine, and once for a cheeseburger at
the Corner Bistro a half-block away. For diversion she was happy
to peer over the front balustrade at passers-by below.
Then one day, for some reason, she was restless, and the three
green walls seemed to close in on her. In a decisive move, she
turned her chair to face north and the Van Gogh apartment
building with its many windows. For the first time, she
considered how Anna's rooftop must appear to her neighbors;
especially at night in lantern light, it was a tiny stage and
every event on it an act in a small play. What dramas of the City
had the Van Gogh witnessed on Anna's rooftop?
As if to confirm the presence of an audience, Masie became
aware of an old woman sitting in one window on the third floor
and staring down at her. Slowly moving her eyes along the front
of the Van Gogh from window to window, Masie spied others. The
higher up the windows, the less certain Masie could be the
viewers were watching her, but of the old woman on the third
floor there was no question. Masie had an urge to turn her chair,
but then thought, well, I want to be an actress, so I will act as
if I am reading a book in a chaise lounge on a rooftop. She
smiled to herself and thought no more about it until two days
later.
She heard a voice calling, "Hello, up there! Anybody up
there on the roof?"
At first she sat stunned out of her little world, resentful at
the intrusion, and thinking she would not answer. But the man
kept shouting, so she did go over to the edge and look down. He
said he was investigating a death at this address, a suicide. Did
she know anything about the man who had lived here before her?
Why, no, Masie told him, she didn't live there herself and the
person who did was out of the country. But she had never heard of
such a thing.
"How did he do it?" she asked.
"Jumped," the man said.
Masie was chilled at this, but curious, too. It was one very
short story down. There was only an unused garage in the rest of
the building. It seemed an unlikely height from which to commit
suicide. Just then the doorman at the Van Gogh called across to
the man from the insurance company, "It's true!" The
investigator dropped Masie like a hot potato and crossed the
street. She stood there hunched over the balustrade trying to
hear more, but they soon went inside the lobby.
When she raised her eyes she looked straight into the window
directly across the way on the level of her roof. She saw a
familiar man. He sketched a small wave toward her and turned
away. Looking up, she saw the old woman on the third floor in her
usual spot. She was nodding affirmatively at Masie. Then from
behind her, came a young man whose dark looks and high cheekbones
struck Masie as intensely interesting. The young man had powerful
arms and shoulders in his black t-shirt. He lifted the woman and
as he did, his dark eyes met Masie's blue ones.
She quickly ducked her head and turned her back, leaning
against the balustrade. She started reading a letter she had
received that day from Anna. In Paris, Anna and Alan had met up
with Tom, Anna's lover, a chemist from New York, who had been
traveling for months and had fallen in love with a Russian woman
named Anya.
"He chose her because of the name," Anna complained.
She didn't seem too put out, Masie noticed. But then, she
couldn't very well be, what with her status as the long time
mistress of Alan. Tom had accepted Alan and now Anna would have
to accept Anya. This did not mean that Anya would accept any of
them. She didn't like them, she told Tom, and refused to meet
them for dinner. Tom put her on a train and that was the last
they saw of Anya.
The letter was started and stopped by Anna every few days, so
Masie was able to keep up with the progress of events. Anna said
she had grown concerned that Alan's health was not quite right.
He was much older than she and he seemed to be slowing down
considerably. Alan was an economist who had been blacklisted in
the 1950s. Masie was unsure if Alan never worked, because nobody
would hire him, or because he had grown used to the idea over the
past twenty years. In any case, Anna and Tom willingly supported
Alan, who lived in a furnished room in New Haven with his 9700
books.
In Paris, Alan was staying with his English friend, Paul, a
reporter for Le Monde, who had just published a book on Paris
bistros. But now, Paul wanted to sell his country house a few
miles outside Paris and Anna was determined to buy it for the ménage
a trois to live in.
Alan was tired of city living, Tom's
profession could follow him anywhere, and there was a perfect
outbuilding for Anna's painting studio. Did Masie want to come to
France and live with them? If not, did she want to sublet the
apartment for two years until the lease ran out?
Good Lord, thought Masie, these people: At ease anywhere in
the world. Masie was reminded that she had wanted to go to school
in Ithaca, but her father, a professor there, insisted she spend
her college years in the big city. "Get some polish,"
he said, "some sophistication. Learn something of the
world." He hadn't wanted her to live at the NYU dorm,
either, but in an apartment in the Village, where he had lived as
a student. "You want to know the artists while you're young,
Masie, the creators. The rest of the world can come later, and
will. Nobody escapes it forever."
By "it," she had known he meant conventional life,
suburbs, babies, and lawns to mow, which was everything the young
Masie wanted in life. But to make him happy, and because he was
paying for it, she came to New York for the acting school. She
did convince him she was frightened of not living in a dorm and
he conceded the point. She earned spending money doing modeling
jobs here and there, which is how she met Anna. Last year she had
a job for Anna all summer long in Sardinia. Masie was supposed to
model and to cook, too, but Anna soon saw it was useless. Anna
loved to cook, anyway. Anna loved to dance, and sew, and do yoga,
husk corn, pick berries, folk dance, make love with peasant men
in any land, and sing off tune.
Before Masie left for Europe, her father took Masie and Anna
out to dinner at One Fifth Avenue. Masie loved the interior of
the restaurant, which had the look and feel of a luxury liner.
Anna was so joyful and sparkling and fascinating that night,
Masie watched her widowed father fall in love before her eyes.
Anna blithely told him she already had two husbands and hadn't
time for another. Masie was relieved. Anna as an employer and a
mentor in the ways of the world was one thing, but as a mother?
By the end of that summer in Sardinia, Masie and Anna were good
friends, with Anna as some kind of older sister, looking out for
the hayseed in the wicked city.
Now here was Anna offering her a new world, two new worlds.
She could leave school and live in Europe. She could stay in
school and live in a Greenwich Village apartment and be a real
New Yorker. Neither option frightened Masie, as it would have
only two years earlier. This surprised her a little. Her father
would be pleased to pay the rent. Her walk to school would only
be a few blocks longer. She glanced up and saw the old woman
nodding at her from the third floor of the Van Gogh. Masie
smiled, thinking, I guess that's a vote.
She knew now the woman was senile and that the man on the
second floor was her son. He had rung Masie's doorbell earlier in
the day with Anna's letter, which had been delivered in error to
the Van Gogh. The doorman, he claimed, had asked him to bring it
over. The doorman himself was standing under the Van Gogh awning
and nodding in confirmation. Anna wondered briefly why the
doorman hadn't crossed the narrow street himself with the letter;
he was often short distances away from his post. But she was
distracted by the man standing in front of her, who, she suddenly
realized, was the man from the bookstore who had the nerve to say
Edith Wharton had written only one good book.
Goodness, Anna thought, I seem to know these people, suddenly.
Wanting only to be polite, she invited the man upstairs for a
coffee on the roof. He declined, saying he was working, but, in
truth, he would welcome the opportunity to come over later if he
could bring his mother with him. Anna must have looked surprised;
she certainly had no words.
"I am sorry," the man said. "My name is Arthur
Lawrence."
"Are you the man who writes the movie summaries in the
television listing of the Times?"
"Why, yes, how kind of you to know that. It's the perfect
job for me. There's nothing I like better than to watch movies on
television."
"But you are wonderful," Masie blurted. "Anna
and Alan talk about your listings all the time, as if they were
small movie reviews."
Mr. Lawrence seemed very embarrassed. Masie was immediately
ashamed of herself; no proper New York sophisticate, she. He went
on to say that he had to get back. His mother's nurse was in
class and she was being difficult, something about Masie and the
rooftop. She used to carry on, he said, about communists on the
rooftop. She recognized Alan as someone she knew to be a
Communist years ago. She goes back and forth in time in her mind.
Once, thinking it was the 1950s, she had actually phoned the FBI
to report the communists across the way. That was when he had
taken the apartment downstairs and gotten a live-in nurse to look
after her. She's not physically ill at all, but more than he can
handle when she is riled over something. Just now, she is upset
that Masie is alone on the rooftop, because of the murders.
Murders?
"Is three o'clock okay? I'll bring a jug of Mint Julep,
if it's all right, and the male nurse has to come, too. So sorry
about all of this."
He rushed off, but Masie stood a few moments where she was.
Murders?
Another peaceful Sunday afternoon, only this time it was
Arthur Lawrence, television movie critic for The New York
Times, his senile mother, and Rafe, the male nurse. Could
that be his real name, Masie wondered? She had trouble looking at
him, because each time she did, his eyes were on hers. Twice, she
had lost control and looked into his eyes, which were almost as
black as his t-shirt. She had a terrible difficulty tearing her
eyes away and he didn't try, even as he carried on a conversation
with Arthur about Lawrence Ferlinghetti's A Coney Island of
the Mind.
Rafe said to Masie, "Albert thinks the only decent Beat
writer is Ginsberg. The rest are self-indulgent prigs."
"I've never been to Coney Island," Masie said,
thinking of Singe Le Fleur.
"We should go," Rafe answered.
Masie looked away in confusion.
Arthur said, "Why, yes, you must go. Rafe has the day off
tomorrow."
Masie felt herself red as a beet and said, "The murders?
What about the murders?"
"Don't think about that, Masie. Mama seems to have
forgotten all about it."
His mother had fallen immediately to sleep on arrival. It
seemed to be enough that she had finally reached the rooftop.
Rafe suddenly gathered her things and picked her up to carry her
across the street. Arthur rose, too, but Masie asked him to stay
a little while. He went downstairs to open the door for Rafe, and
to ask the doorman to let them in, and returned.
"It's really nothing for you to worry about," he
said, as he poured the last of the Mint Julep. "The man who
lived here pretended he was a photographer and lured naïve young
girls into his studio in the garage downstairs."
"He killed them downstairs?" Masie was shocked and
horrified.
"No, no. He convinced them to go ‘on location' into
the countryside."
"How many?"
"Several, I don't know, really. I'm so sorry to have you
worry. I have work to do tonight and I have to go. Will you be
all right?"
"Yes," she said uncertainly.
Albert was rising to take his leave.
"Wait. The man, the killer, did he commit suicide?"
"He was found in the street when a car hit his body. He
was already dead."
"Do you think it possible he could have jumped? Or could
he have been pushed? Or thrown, already dead when he hit the
ground?"
"I don't know any of it. I was on a trip to London when
it happened. I heard about it from Rafe when I got home. My
mother saw whatever happened, but we didn't tell anyone."
"But why not?"
"She couldn't have related it rationally. She forgot all about it, I
thought. I wanted it to stay forgotten for her sake. She's only
started up about it since you've been here."
"Rafe? Did he see?"
"Well, that's something I would like to know, too. All
he's ever said to me was that it was justice, whatever happened.
One of the victims was a girl he knew, very young, from his
hometown in Michigan. I've often wondered…. No, Rafe
wouldn't leave Mama alone, I know that."
Masie stared at him. It was as if he were talking to himself
at the last. But Arthur collected himself and started for the
door to the studio.
He turned and said, "Masie, Rafe is a fine young man,
very talented, a film school graduate student. He's written a
script about the murders. I've read it. He has a great future
ahead of him. Whatever we may imagine, and imagine is all we can
do, let us leave his brilliant future intact."
Masie walked him downstairs to double lock the door behind
him. On the sidewalk, he turned to thank her for having them. He
saw her eyes were large, more puzzled than frightened, as she
inspected the street in front of her new home. She looked up at
the third floor window of his mother's apartment.
"Masie," Arthur said, "whatever bad spirit or
karma or energy the place ever had has been long wiped out by you
and your good friends. I've watched from my window for three
years since. The evil could never have survived the love and
laughter. Be at peace and be happy."
He turned and crossed the street. Masie locked the door and
went upstairs. She closed the studio door to the roof and locked
it. She had never known that door to be locked in the year she'd
been coming here. It was one of the wonders of New York, she had
told Anna, that even one house had an unlocked door. Anna had
responded that the good place spirit protected her house.
Masie showered and got into bed with a book, wondering if she
would be able to sleep, but she did sleep. She slept a long,
peaceful, restful sleep, and woke rejuvenated and feeling very
much alive and well.
Masie and Rafe ate hot dogs and French fries from a stand on
the Boardwalk at Coney Island and spun cotton candy for dessert.
The beach was very crowded, strangely so, against the backdrop of
the all but abandoned amusement park, the rusting wrought iron
Parachute Jump towering in the sky, the mostly closed buildings
of fun, the fading signs announcing the Fat Lady, the Tattooed
Man, and the Freak Show. The disused Thunderbolt roller coaster
had a huge tree growing through its tracks. Rafe told Masie it
had been put up for sale by the City just last year, but there
were no buyers.
But the Cyclone was still operating, all 3,000 feet of it, all
of its nine hills, and its minute and a half rush at 60 MPH. She
was in his arms within 30 seconds. She was almost collapsing from
weakness when they got off the ride. Rafe took her arm and
wrapped it around his. They strolled slowly along the Boardwalk.
Uncontrollably her hand kept reaching up and stroking the hard
muscles of his upper arm and down to those of his forearm. He
stopped and leaned her back against the railing, one powerful arm
on either side of her, his hands grasping the railing.
She looked into the deep darkness of his eyes.
She said, "Rafe?"
He said, "Don't think about it. Don't think about
anything."
He kissed her and she kissed him back.