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Feb 6, 2001
NO
I think I just busted a guy and i felt guilty about it. (Poetry)

This is my emotional outlet.


You came to me with sincerest interest
Of friendship and a chance of finding love
I spoke to you with warmest thoughts
And silent reasons of what can't take place
At this time, in this way.

My heart weeps for my unguarded faults
That may have disappointed you
I fear my lack to reciprocate
I tremble for an escape from your capture
I am lost, I am astray.

I admit to my inexperienced heart
And the slightest hint of immaturity it may show
My youth keeps me strangely disabled
It screams with echoes of my hindered heartbeats
Every second, every minute.

Shall I respond to your demure offers
I might feel trapped in undying loyalty
My liberated conscience whispers to me
I must refuse, I must deny myself
I can be strong, I can be weak.

The possibility I hide within my personal vows
I sting with worry because pain is my enemy
I will not allow it to exist in you
You hold a niche in my well-reserved soul
It's opened me, it's kept me whole.

Forgive me for my naiveity
I'm just an innocent girl who can't handle
The thought of someone loving her
However true you are in declaring
Stay not too close, stay not too near.

I may falter in my actions
I may stutter when I speak
I don't know how to handle situations
In serious times like this
I just laugh, I just smile.

Overwhelming explosions that stir within
Suppressed notions and controlled implications
I am incapable of this turbulent display
They intrude and perplex me
Try to listen, try to see.

So everytime you approach me
Be without judgement, be without despair
Receive my solid answer with courage
Contemplate but do not dwell
Seal this flame, seal this spell.

Contributed by:
Calm Blue
©2001
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